Memory Of Life

Memory of Life

         Memories...Accidents that could never be forgotten. People that might not be in our lives anymore but would live rent-free in our mind. Some wanted, some unwanted. Sometimes we don't realize that the moment we are experiencing is the moment we'll never ever be able to forget. The moments that seem most insignificant at the time usually turn into the memories we cherish the most. sometimes we fail to realize that we get stuck in small thing that don't even matter and forget what's actually important is to just live. all these problems, fights are going come and go, we might even remember. I remember my first failed attempt at cheating with my 3 friends, I remember trying to control my laughter when trying to explain the answer to others and them getting it wrong...I remember one of my friends asking the other one to tilt her head so that she can copy and the other one not even budging, the first one being frustrated and pinching the other one from under the bench making her scream, (it sounded more like a moan), us laughing (silently, so that the supervisor doesn't hear) so hard that our stomach hurt. I remember my boards, the discussion on calls all night long, paper dissection's with friends, the "Best of Lucks" before papers, the attempts to cheat, the fun after papers, and of course he last day of boards... I didn't even realize I was seeing a lot of faces for the last time ever...I didn't even talk to a few of the due to things that now seem meaninglessly stupid. 

          I remember mostly it all... maybe I reminded you of your very own stories, your own stupidities, your own fun...you remember it, don't you? but you know I don't remember any of my marks of those tests…Do you? I'm not saying they weren't important but we sometimes prioritize a lot of things in our life so much that we forget to prioritize living... then after years we find ourselves crying in the office of a stranger in the name of therapy with only one question in our mind..."why". maybe because in the process of getting it all right you got yourself wrong? maybe while prioritizing everyone else you forgot you ARE your first priority or maybe because you, while making every unimportant thing important, forgot that you too are important... you see, we humans love to chase, chase is our forte. a better job, a better opportunity, a better house, a better life, a better tomorrow... but does it even exist? we fail to understand in the search of the hypothetical better tomorrow we lose our present. and who know if we'll be there tomorrow to begin with... we need to understand that we humans... normal mortal being and not some extra ordinary creatures to be perfect... 

Life is not a chase to be won but simply a memory to be cherished...